Friday, March 20, 2009

...weakens your will


I was betrayed, lied to, mentally and emotionally tortured, given all the crap of a traitor and the likes of it, unfairly chose over all because of one girl.
Dude, its unbearable. VERY unbearable.

Stop protecting yourself. Stop protecting yourself with lies you made up as you go on. Stop using crappy excuses and stop all the accusation. Stop feeling preyed on. Its all a lie. You lied to yourself.
Dude, open your eyes. I'm the victim.

You are a pain. You are a sick sick guy. You think you're great. But really, what's so great about a big traitor? I failed. but atleast I tried. You failed without trying. You failed because of the wrong choices you've made.
Dude, yeah this time, I AM mocking you.

I admit. I was rough. I was too harsh. I didn't understand. But now. Whats there to understand? its clear. I'm sorry, pls forgive me. I have feelings too.
Dude, you're tired of me yesterday, you give up today. Me? I'm tired of you a LONG time ago.. and I'm still trying.

Why? why do I still care? I have every reasons in the world to hate and forget. Why didn't I? Why am I still wasting time?
Dude, its because you're important.

Fine. you chose her. Its okay. I'll accept that. It hurts. But I am willing. Why am I the only one who deeply appreciate it? Am I the only one who values it.
Dude, you've sucessfuly become a monster. You killed it.

I remember. The time when everything was fine. Everthing was how it suppose to be. We were happy. We were sad. But we're still brothers. Yeah I remember the good times when it was not damaged like it is now. I remember.
Dude,.... do you?

Okay. It is done. you've made another choice. This is how it turned out. Don't worry buddy, in time you'll forget--If you didn't already. Me? its a permanent scar. I'll learn to live with it.
I'm not angry anymore. But I'm still sad. Goodbye to it.
Dude, congratulations, 1 down.... 2 more to go..

P/S:
Dude, is this really the end?



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2 comments:

Men in Black said...

dude, just hang on..
it will be better as time goes by..
=]

DearCoffeeDude said...

aww thanks azhar.
maybe it will..
or maybe NOT!
ARGH