...Another Apology Goes to Waste

how can a guy commit soooo many mistakes and apologize only once?
how can he pull it off?
HOW!?

I dont know. so umm. blehh.


ahem.


forgive me dear blog. I have ignored you. though you are not forgotten. I still ignore the fact that you need constant attention. I have failed you. here, chocolates. just for you dear blog. TAKE IT!!

ma blog: Apology attempt rejected freak.


: o


life is too fast for someone slow like me. Important things keeps poking me in the ass. And when someone or something is poking you in the ass, you just cant ignore it. Priorities shifting. I'm loosing interest. I've theorized myself out of everything.

long story short: i'm getting old.

its no fun getting old. seriously.


9/2/2010--- I'm 17

5/6/2010--- I'm dead.


Its not fun posting new posts anymore. There's no point. Nothing is happening in life.
yes people. I'm finally growing up. I'm old. olddd. oldd.

old bread with old butter and old expired strawberry jam. and *dramatic music* old coffeeeee


*echo*


You know how old people always give advices to youngsters? Well here's my advice as and old guy except its kinda useless.

number one.
enjoy being young. forget all those crappy things (e.g homework, school, urr PMS?). Who cares!?
your parents does but. WHO CARES!? pretty soon those gorgeous faces will undergo groovy mutations (e.g wrinkles, age spot, urr unicorn horns?). I repeat. Getting old is not fun. 16 15 is young. 17 is OLD. Old is no fun. No fun is suicide. suicide is death. DEATH is... deathhhhss! *dramatic music, sembur sembur*


*echo*


second advice.
I forgot.

BUT!
that just proofs that being old sucks! you forget things! so there!
*phew* > :D





okay um. this is getting boring. I'm gonna go to the playground and eat some ice-cream now. see yaaa.



.

...Reduces the Risk for the Ugly Duckling Syndrome.

Not true. :D

RnR

yes. this is how rnr looks these days.
no more uguks.

this used to be the holy shrine where the uguks would spend their day
having fun. enjoying each others company.

but those days are over.
this is how rnr looks these days.
quite and dead.
no more nasty teenagers to make it lively.

quite and dull.
its just there. waiting.
waiting to once again protect the uguks from the rain.

I will remember those torn books which I..
oh yea. now I remember. THATS WHY WE DONT GO THERE ANYMORE!
xD

hahaha. jom gelak. haha. jom. haahh




I do not own read and relax.

...Wont Heal Damanged Relationship.

my dearest blog-thing. You are not abandoned. You are simply temporarily forgotten.
Brain-cramping life issues are preventing us from keeping in touch. I sincerely beg for your forgiveness. I now realize that you are the friend that's always been there. You are the symbol of myself.

And I love myself . HAA :D
pls accept this gift my dearest blog.


(bunyi loceng ice-cream bertukar ke siren ambulans) WU!


truth be told. I've not been true to my name lately. I no longer satisfy my need for coffee in the morning. Mama says its not good for me. yeke? It keeps me happy doesn't?

Why cant I be happy? The holidays are suppose to be that time in a year where I expose my metallic chompers to strangers. (siren ambulan makin kuat)

trusth is. I would label this year's endofyear holiday as: Suck as hell.

The reason?

I dont know. all of us have our own reasons. so hah.

kay bye ambulance dh datang. :D WU!

...Turns You Grey

and here lies, another child, another creature of god.
here lies the deceased. Eyes forever shut. Slumbering with Peace.


born into this world. without a clue of how it can really be.
pale skin, an even paler sense of reality.
A life of imagination starts here.
Daydreaming since 1993.


He would ask his mother. Why was he born without wings.
She couldn't answer.
He would say.
I belong among the clouds. Not here.
(he was obsessed about extraterrestrial beings)

He was a son. A brother. A friend to himself.
he was also getting older.
already branded the title 'failure'
He wasn't the most responsible son.
(he was the 'slow' one)

And so he begins his search.
for the family he never had.
Among strangers. Among friends.
His plans coming to shape day by day.
(he was always this weird)

But disappointment came first. As always.
again he tried, again he failed.
failing is now a part of him.
These are the factors that shapes him to what he was.
(he gets all the 'bad' genes)

He grew bitter overtime.
Friend by friend.
Lover by lover.
Enemies by enemies.
(he prefers being sour actually)

His hard exterior blinded people from his soft interior.
starting a relationship with insults rather than kind words.
and thus people treat him terribly.
trying to break that hard shell and expose all the weaknesses within.
(he likes shrimps)

A lover of everything different.
he does things his own way.
not caring what happens.
not caring what people think.
(he does care alot about being short!)

Though Born with a bad right eye.
he was an observer.
This became a past-time favorite.
now with a camera in hand, the world IS his art.
(he cant even hold the camera without shaking.)

Eventhough he was not physically strong.
he has a strong heart.
he holds firmly onto what he believes in.
Using his sharp mouth as a main weapon.
(he hates his braces)

Never ceasing to ambush his mates with annoying jokes.
they say you are what you choose to be.
he prefers, you are what you eat.
Hah.
(he still thinks its funny)

One day, what happens to be an investigation act.
he met new strangers.
they became friends.
they didn't understand him, but they tolerated him.
(he was part of the CSI craze at that time)

Soon he was part of an African tribe.
close enough, he thought.
this could be what he was always searching for.
mistake number 568890.
(he lost count a long time ago)

So happy yet so angry.
He is always determined.
to make every second of his and his friend's life an epic adventure.
he was always an adventurer.
(Introduce him to a lil kitten, he'd run)

However, things always gets ugly.
he knew.
one wrong choice.
he always knew.
(add math, he dint knew too much)

He cant change who he is.
there were no words, there were ALWAYS no words.
he spoke with his watery eyes.
the deal is done.
(a part of him died there in smtg)

Dear new friends.
this is haziq.
this is the haziq you would've known.
this is the haziq that was never given any chance.

Fuck you.



spirit and soul blessed.
may he forever rest in peace.

... Makes you GOLEK.

DU.. du.. DU.. du.. DU..


friends. Buddies.

hate to say it but this topic is WAaaaAY overrated. And I don't usually go for those.
However, it is always a question that intrigues my dim mind to write something on this seriously neglected blog of mine. Forgive me, the kepoyoan starts here:

the question. A very close friend of mine asked me this. Why are you always happy? Dun dun dun. Happy? HAPPY? have you not been paying attention?

but thats the reality of life--er my life. I keep for myself a group of friends I consider dearest to me. How is it not apparent to them how my life is? am I not considered dear to them? Maybe I never told them. Maybe its them who never paid any attention.

let see. I'm the noisy one. sometimes. does that mean I don't enjoy quit light conversations? I'm the one with the ideas. does that mean I'm happy all the time? what happened to those times where I needed support? my 'fragile' mode?

'fragile mode'?? bile pulak? ko asik happy je.

prihatin seseorang kawan.

---

I define thos dearest to me as not only the ones who i can be myself and sakai my way to hell..but also the ones I seek when I needed help or even attention. Oh how it hurts. Kawan utk berseronok je rupanyaa.

maybe I cant blame them. Living in a half-daydreaming life- maybe I never showed them whats underneath those colorful cloud.The reality?

---

kepoyoan bermula kembali.

well uh. I am happy. despite my lack of many things, I still have the bestest friends the world could ever hope for. and now its proven that maybe they're not the 'bestest' anymore. hmm still happy ka?

my dear friends. I know its awkward to see me like this. yeah i know hilang cool. but happy is not all i am. yelah tk selalu. but still-- dont you think that I too feel these things? aku pon boleh?

hmm. I faced lots of problem with my height. (people thinking i'm young/girls are unattracted to me/ I'm gonna die alone/etc). thats one. My family thinks I'm a failure. Abah panngil aku 'bengap'. kegedikan aku yg tk dpt nk control. wanita muntah tngok perangai aku. two, three, and four. thats a lot! knp happy? because of you guys. But then, timbul itu soalan. hilang happy?
YUP! :D


bye!


p/s: I f i dont own my dear camera, would we still be friends?


kepoyoan ends here ladie and gentlemen. feel free to ignore. :)

...Makes You Tastefully Weird.

'good lord! you poor thing! I'm suprised you made it out alive!!'
that was the first I had in mind reading thru a friend's blog.



ehem ehem. Dear coffee-dude, aren't you going to write something silly in your silly blog and make silly words and silly statements? i do hope you keep up the sillyness. Did you know? small boys are gross-- but silly hee hee <333

-littlegirl34


No littlegirl34! I shall not! for this time a more serious tone needs to be instilled! sillyness would have to wait. a tortured soul needs to be saved. His broken spirit needs to be lift up highh. And everyone knows: nobody can do that better than a cup of coffeeee. But it is ramadhan! so coffee-dude will have to fill in. stay in school, be nice, eat your veggies and other shit i should tell little kids. taa taa.


ehem ehem. Dear coffee-dude, I found your blog to be pretty annoying. Its irrelevant. Its full of silly nonsense. AND there nothing about kanyewestvstaylorswift. Aren't you gonna write something about raye?? did you know? I want to grow up to be as tall as a tree so people wouldn't laugh at me like they do to you. har har choww.

-littleboy56


What!! you kiss your mom with that mouth?! Well I'm hurt! I hope you're happy! kids these days! And no! raye is boring. EVVVVVEEEERYYYONEEEE KKNNOOWWWS! duh! fuck you! go to hell! eat veggies and go to SCHOOL! HAAAAAH!!! taa taa.


Dear coffe-dude, You rock man! YOU RULE! you're the BOSS!
LOVE FOR ALL!

-weirdguy78


Why yes. yes i do. thankssssss :'D too bad I dont know you!

-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
nobody sends me e-mails anymore x(. I tell you, imaginary ones are much much better.



now, the real topic:

dude,
seriously, you shall forever be honored for enduring those torturous moments.
makes you realize how important friends are. :)

I might be the mean one. azhar might be the naive and oblivious one. and hafyz.. is hafyz.

BUT! there aint gonna be nobody else who's willing to help you at any cost! ANY COST! (you know how we can be)

and you my friend. the funny and weird one. and also the one in need this time. There's nobody else thats going to enjoy both your greatness and weaknesses at the same time.

something needs to be done about your school. and I've got the perfect plan:

==sek-ret==


brilliant I know! so find some other source of education! coz the old one is going to be ==secret==

take care
god bless.



I'm not on drugs!
.

...Gives you SEXINESSS

Phew.. been a while.. worry not! these fingers are not strangers to the keyboard !
ehem. whats up with the controversial title? No, this time its actually relevant.
A lot of people keep asking me. How did you come up with that name? (dearcoffeedude)
well, here's my excuse..

It happened in a dream..


'What makes a man or women sexy? to you that is?'

'huh? who me?'

'yes you! the short guy with a funny smell!'

'(funny smell?)'

'yes! funny smell! '

'umm you're not suppose to respond to that! (its in brackets see?) '

'whatever shortie! so what gives a man or a women the sexynesssssshhhh.'

'(is it raining?) Do you really HAVE to include the man? '

'yes! Nowadays you can never be too sure! '

'well I'm only interested in women okayhh? '

'sure'

'Hey! i don't like that tone!'

'(closet fag) teehee.'

'HEY!'

'don't respond to the brackets kid.'

'$%^&*... well uh. women with long hair are kinda sexy?'

'a guy with a long WHATTT?? '

'Whaa?! I dint say THAT! '

'keep it clean kid.'

'what!?'

'sooo is that all? you can do better than that! come on! fire up those hormones!! '

'what do you want from me!? '

'ANSWERS! FRICKKKIN ANSWERS! '

'okay! chill man! '

'WHAT? you admit it now? you like men?? '

'NO! i didn't say thaaat! '

'what the hell do you like then!!?? '

'I HATE YOU! '

'I asked what you like buddy, not what you hate. '

'ARRRGHHHH!'

'did I just turn you on? '

'Are you IN-- '

'--telligent? why yes! But my question first! Answer it!! '

'FINE! Coffee is smexyy as hell!'

'seriously? eww.'

'you asked! '

'I'm outta here you creep. '

...


'no i'm not. I'm stuck here you see? '


'(Shi*!) I have a freaky guy stuck in my head. I need proper medication. '


'Hey! you're the freaky one 'coffee dude' ! '


'argh.'


'yeah. freak. so thats why you always walk around with that camera! been taking dirty pictures of coffee cups eh? I should report you! '


'you're stuck. '


'yeah thanks to you! I have a wife you know! '


'now its my fault!? you have a wife? '


'yeah! I like women. Unlike someone I happen to know.. '


'you're an idiot! '


this is what too much caffeine does to you kid. do your homework. I have a PH.d in makingupfactsforentertaiment-ology you know. '


'DIE!! '


'If I die, YOU DIE!! bring it babehh! '


----------------------------------


I wake up strangling myself and with an Idea in mind.
the end?

...Gives You The DATE OF DEATH.

Today. I went to school. My Dreadful Dreadful school. Feeling Depressed. Feeling Down.
the bell rings. Diiiinggg. I know i was doomed.

My English teacher comes in. She told us that she was too lazy to teach. What a relief. But she insisted that we play a game. A game she invented. To help us in our vocabulary. 'The old fashioned way' she calls it.

3 students were picked. one by one. Each representing the alphabet. A, B and C. Each of them need to come up with a word beginning with the letter they're representing. She will then ask the student other words associated with the word they've come up with.

Clearly we were uninterested. It was boring. It was hell. I suffered the most.
She perhaps, noticed this. And decided to further my suffering. I was next.

"Haziq! give me one word beginning with the letter D"

I was thinking:
Oh no! I need to think fast. ah fuck she's looking at me! god help me I'm desperate!
maybe her face can help me. Umh let see. Her face reminds me of ....Devil? Diva? Dirty? Dim Sum!? De---bab??

"HAZIQ!?"

" Umm.. DEATH??"

"Good one! now, what word is commonly associated with 'death'?"

I was thinking:
GREAT! more questions! how I despise youuuu.. HmmMMM.... HEY!
Nadia looks pretty today! hmm I wonder what makes her soo happy...?

"Haziq! berangan ye? tu la! Tau tak? Drugs itu bahayaaa??"

I was thinking:
die ni BM ke BI? ke B I S I N G??

"Hazzzzziiiiiiiiiiiqqqqqq!!!"

" YE!! YE!! uhh the word commonly asccociated with 'death' is.. iss...... uhh.... Date!!?"

" 'Date' ??? "

then the whole class gelak cam sawan bahbie.







I was thinking:
DAMN.








D end.

...Brings You SHORTHNESS

HAHAHAHA Ho~

readin' through my blog (bahhlu crazy ape?) you probably guessed that I have some issues with my height. (MENTAL ISSUES TAKMAU KESAH?). Truth be told dear strangers, I am pretty short for my age. I'm short for an Asian. I'm short for a guy. Yes its very unfortunate. AND its also uncool!

Hear me out:

Living in a world where being a total dictator is fine as long as you look good can be hard. I was never the attractive one. But its okay! pssh i dont care! I'm not alone babehhs xD. Life is okay. Life is great. I have great friends. I'm having fun. I look around with great satisfaction on how I turn out to be despite my constant mental and financial probss. All smiles and no tears. This is great! things couldn't be better for me. Accept for one TINY PROBLEM...

I was short. I realized. my friends looked like they belong in story books. the sky is theirs. The people around me-- about my age, they are probably enjoying many sights which may be forever hidden from me! OH NO! how could this be! GASP OF DOOM. TINY PROBLEM! eheh get it? uhh..

It felt horrible. Knowing that somehow, no matter how great you are: you are somehow inferior to everyone else. This sucks! Its like having your favorite coffee mug placed on the TOP shelf!
reach for it! reach for it I say! !

ehem. However, according to my great research (which I am trying to make it sound like I really did do a research) Being short is worse for boys compared to girls. How so?
hmm let seee..

1) Small or rather petite girls are largely considered as cute. MOST guys find petite girls very attractive. In fact, they are so attractive that short girls these days aren't even considered to be short at all. People tend to think that they're normal. 'yay' x/

Short guys on the other hand are not viewed as 'cute' at all! They are considered less attractive than other guys and are usually the last to be picked. Their lack of essential inches are more obvious since tall guys basically rules the world. Clearly, finding a partner is harder for us. We are endlessly reminded of how we 'lack' something, standing among other guys. In sports, we are probably the ones chosen not for the ball but the stinky costume. OR chosen to BE the ball boohoo.

2)HIGH HEELS ARE NOT MADE FOR GUYS. yes! haven't you heard? Yeah yeah you lucky ladies get all the good stuff xD. A girl can easily become 'the statue of liberty' by only putting on a pair of 6 inch heels. Woohooh!

How about us guys? Even NORMAL shoes aren't made to fit us! Same goes to any other wearables. We can't get any decent looking outfits without expensive alterings. Tuxedos aren't made for short guys! What do you people suggest we wear!? Pacifiers and diapers? Sailor costumes?

Nowadays, clothing are made especially for petite ladies. XS actually works for them! Yes, they do not face the problems we face dear strangers.

3)The sad sad story of name-calling. Yes. while us guys are stuck with frodo, dobbie and and and GARY COLEMAN!, the girls are stuck with the likes of thumbellina, tinker bell, and ENTAH. Ask yerrselves which is worse? a dude with feet growth disorder or a pretty fairy slut?


Oh! and there's more! but I'm currently suffering from a Temporary SHORT term memory lost!.




(big words for a short guy ) xP



.

...Another Price to Pay

Olaa. Today I've been doing a lot of reaching back into the past haha. You know, time2 dimana anda duduk termenung dan sengih sorang2. Then I felt like its time to let it all spill. Where did I get such courage from all of a sudden? COFFEE.

Ahh.... friends.. I think everyone needs a couple of friends to complete a day with. Friends are great. I should know, I have a whole bunch safe in my pocket right now. x)
(((gelak pondan)))


EHEM. I've met aand befriended all kinds of friends over the years. Some still remain and have their own personal space in my mind. Some left off never to be seen again. I might have gotten the spirit to write this one because I feel these are the ones who I remembered most and would love to see again. But that will never happen. haha. Move on la haziq! tergedik-gedik lagi.

ahhh. Tulis dlm bm ler. my english is slowly being destroyed by my new school. God save me.

ehem. count-down style: ((gelak bapok))


no.10: Aizat Aslam

NGAHAHA. tu je yg aku ingt tentang mamat ni.xD we were young. we were awkward.
tahun2 plng pelik dan lucu. Tapi its waaaayyy back. dh lame dh. we were notorious for being noisy and sentiase mencari publicity murahan di kalangan rakan2 sekelas. 'Those two gay kids' ughhhh. Too bad. You went off without a word. Cant even remember your face anymore xD

no.9: Kaelyn

kejap sngt!! tapi ssh untuk dilupa. ngahahah. Awek aussie ajak aku tngok teevee kat rumahnya. Salad die best. pemalu. ckp kuat bebenor. hahaha kejap tapi best. Selalunye die pkai skirts and shorts la ntah ape lagi. Tapi time nk hang ngan aku die saje pkai sopan2 skit eheh. Prihatin. Die tau kot 'I'm not allowed to' . Die ajak aku g jumpe boyfriend die. Aku tak nak. takot! ((gelak maknyah)) ape2 pon kite tak akan berjumpe lagi. Aku terpakse pulang.
saje dlm tulis bm tak nak die paham gahahhah.

no,8: Syukk.

Ahmed syukk. the nicest guy yg aku pernah jumpe (i'm sure you guys agree gak hakhak). Nice tahap merepek! due tahun kelas same. Due tahun gelak tak henti2. tahun ketiga, jarang jumpe. tak rapat cam dulu. Die ni baik. suke tolong org. suke buat lawak. Aku agak close ngan family die. adik2 nye. ibunye. every year die bg birthday present kat aku. As a token of our on going friendship. Walaupun dh tak jumpe kat skola die ingt lg bday aku. Aku je tak ingt bday die. Sbb sebok ngan uguk la ape lah. skrng bru aku menyesal. Aku bnyk salah ngan die tapi die senyum je haha. kan dh kate! BAIKKKK! I promised to buy you a birthday present. almost 3 tahun dah.
FUCK AKU RASE BERSALAH.

ape2 pon. walaupon dh tak jumpe. aku ingt ko. ko ingt aku. one day aku balas jasa2 ko tuh.
hahah oh ye. rambut die curly ala2 org greece. ngahahah.

no.7: Sarah, Amy, Aimi

hahaha ni la rakan2 setia aku time 'the glorious days of 3 ino'. Gile, pelik, weird, unique. Ni yg buat aku ske sngt kat 3 makcik ni. Tak seperti girls2 lain yg tngh sebok bermaket kan diri dan tergedik -gedik tunjuk buntut. These ladies has class and respect. Aku tak pernah jumpe org yg bnyk in common ngan aku. Kami sume minat ARTS. Tapi of course la, diorang sume dah pro. Skill dah lawan leonardo. Aku terhegeh-hegeh. Bnyk bende kite buat bersame. tapi malangnye aku kene pegi ke 'U'. bukan universiti. tetapi??. sorry sngt2 aku prnh terlupe kewujudan korang pade satu mase tu. Guys if u're reading this, I miss you so damn much even the great lord of fictional hell cant stop me from being such a pussy thinking about you guys.

no.6: Atip, Tipah.

tak tau la ape penyakit, tapi tiba tiba sahaja rindu kan minah2 senget ni. hahaha. zaman 3 ino gak. aku gedik. kene pukul. aku ckp. kene pukul. aku kutuk. diorang 5 kali kutuk aku. hahaha frienemie yg plng best dlm sejarah hidup aku. Aku kate atip gigi lawa. die kate gigi aku besi. tipah muke botox. aku muke jambu. atip takde 'asset' (xDDD). aku takde 'jantan'. memang lawak. hahaha. Kat nerake nnti hang blk ye? :'D ((gelak bapok))

no.5: My Sisters.

hmm. tinggal still same2 tapi sumpah aku rase diorang dh tinggalkan aku. kitorang dari kecik mmng tak rapat. Tapi kitorang masih anggap yg kitorang bestfriends. mane pegi? ape jadi? entah aku pon tak tau. pemikiran lain sngt kot. Aku rase lain. diorang rase lain. Aku rindu korang laaa. Jom mcm dulu2 kacau mama abah? hahahaha. aku tau kitorang tak blh rapat dah. korang sebok ngan hidup sendiri. aktiviti2 korang aku tak boleh join. aku rase salah. tapi korang still akak adik aku. aku akan tetap backup korang. love you guys. hidup mati. kami still siblings setan. I just hope you guys return back to jln yg benar.

aku tau diorang tak bacenye bende alah ni! ((tarian sedih))

no.4: Amirul

Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaa! yg ni yg aku nk melalak tekanan logik nih! tisu2!
hua ape jadi dude? bestfriends lagi ke? haishhh. die mmng famous. org ske kutuk die. tapi2 ape2 pon aku tak pernah tak mengaku yg die ni bestfriend aku. lantak korang ah nk ckp ape! korang tak kenal die mcm mane aku kenal die. Die ni sweet sngt. kdng2 die sweet sngt tak blh kwl perasaan. aku ingt dh skola same. senang la hidup. relationship yg dh damaged boleh hantar repair blk. tapi lain jadi. aku kesian tngok die tension. aku tolong mane yg boleh. finally die dpt pindah blk. tapi ennntahhhhh. maybe he's tired of me. Aku tau aku dah BOSAN GILE HAHAHA. aku dah lain. rambut dh nipis. muke dh bnyk ketumbuhan mcm2 species. nak tngok pon geli gahahaha xD tapi takpe aku happy tngok ko happy. aku akan still support ko. Ingt one thing je dude! dlm dunie ni, bnyk2 awek ko pon. takde sape yg akan stand by you because of both kelebihan ko and kekurangan ko. (rojak overloaddd).

mamma mia jng la die bace! mampus akuu.

no.3: Anis

tak kenal eh? hahaha aku pon tak kenal. tapi aku nak kenal. maybe aku ni terlalu low standard kot. hahaha die ni glamour habis. aku sempoi je. haha habis aku buat die malu. ngahaha. kenal thru farah. jumpe brape kali je. tapi serious aku rase dh rapat dngn die. Memang ber ia-ia ah nk kwn ngan die. gahahahahh. nk brcakap ngan die senang. tapi dh start je merepek aku, die diam buat muke. segan pulak aku hahaha. farah jugak la yg selamatkan aku dng gelaknye yg kureng ikhlas x)) babenggg. Yes i think she's pretty. but pls la aku tak berminat. (seperti yg disangkekan oleh bdk2 lain). First time jumpe time bday aku. hahahah last jumpe time bile entah. time jumpe ko main lagi rindu2 nk jumpe lagi la ape la. hahahah. tapi malangnye alien dh jumpe die. die dh pergi bersama-sama mereka. bye anis. hahaha. I ade one last thing nk ckp: sumpah u hot! xD

no.2: Farah Hazwani.

gahahah nenek sorang ni memang best. aku pon tak sangke blh kwn ngan die. first time jumpe time pegi jamuan pps/prs. haha sebelum tu tak pernah pulak nmpk kat school hahaha. anyway mula2 kenal aku ingt die ni cam girls lain yg gedik. yela, one of amir's fan. hahaha tapi entah camne aku matchmaking diorang berdua =, then jadi rapat gila. then baru aku sedar, die ni sumpah lain! hahaha tak sangke! ngahaha. amat cool. amat gile. amat suke merepek. hahaha mcm aku la ((gelak babok)). except cool la xD. Sbb die different yg aku ske sngt kwn ngan die hahah. Kwn2 laki die yg lain memang seronok ah kutuk2 aku xD kureng cuka betul. Aku memang rapat dngn die zaman die bersame amir. siap backup die dr fans2 amir yg lain ngahaha. Kami bnyk aktiviti kegemaran yg selalu diamalkan. anataronya, kutuk diri, kutuk aku xD, lepak, jalan-jalan, tegur org tak kenal, bergadoh, bersakaaaaiiii. Tapi favouritenya: fitnah memfitnah sape kentut. classic wooo. hahaha tapi skrng die dh makin popular makin hot. laki2 sume kejar hahahh. tinggal aku sorang je takde laki nk kejar hahahaha. yela aku tak hot kat skola. cikgu aku ucapkan salam pon nk cocok mate tngok aku! jeng3.

apo2 pon aku memang tak fikir pnjang dpt hang out ngan die cam dulu x).

no.10: Hizri, Amir, Amir f, Syafiq, Danial, ME

celakaaa. hahaha walaupon malu, tapi ngan diorang ni haa yg aku ingt skali kah kah. kenal sejak skola rendah. diorang sume kamching2. aku je terhegeh-hegeh. hahaha. anyway tak kenal sngt untill aku join keluarge pps tanpe sebaaabb. Sumpah aku tak tahu tujuan aku join pon xD. then rapat. background masing2 memang tahu. sume best. sume lain personality. sume ade style sendiri. hahaha. aku pon tak sangke diorang blh accept aku dng cpt gituu hahaha. padehal baru betul2 kenal time form 2?? hahaha tapi best best.bnyk bende yg memalukan. diorang berpoyo, aku pon ikot berpoyo. hahaha diorang sume dah famous dlm kalangan rakan2 sekolah yg lain. aku je hahaha bdk baru menerima publicity. But secare jujurnya aku rase 'loww' bersame mereka. obviously aku ni bukan sejenis mereka. org ramai kate aku tak layak kwn diorang. diorang pon sedar kot. tapi buat dont know je. tapi lama2 mungkin diorang sedar kot. that's why makin lame makin distant. then finally sume pindah. smpai sekarang tak tahu menahu ceritaaa. hahaha gedik. kitorang tak bnyk hang out actually, aku tak ade duit. :P. bak kate bdk2 btho, aku tak layak jadi kwn diorang. tapi that night yg aku plng ingt: WAHAHAH. best siot. new year celebration kat rumah hizri. best kami bersetan secara ringan. hahaha. plng best. plng memorable. planning nk buat lagi after that. seperti yg lain, memang tak akan jadi hahahaha. Anyway aku appreciate those short years dng korang hahaha. god bless thy golden hearts. :)




phew that was LOOOONG. jng bace ah! :B




note: I know its hard to believe but, I'm not gay! hahahah kadang2 je! x)




god bless.

.

...Gets You Stuck in Love

I just had those 'FALL IN LOVE MOMENT' as soon as I saw this little guy. Possible feelings for an item? I think so. God I wish I had a nice leather wallet that magically never runs out of money. Aaand maybe something to make me taller.




end. God Bless.

...Makes Your Teeth Shiny

Thats a lie. False fact people! I should know. :)


So then ladies and gents I'm back to tell you stories just to pointlessly show you how miserable and crazy my life can get sometimes , so you can laugh your butts off and have a good day and sleep well at night. Yeah, seriously, I don't get paid for this. FREE ENTERTAINMENT BABEHH!!.

It was the mid term holiday, a day for wealthy people to flaunt their wealth and a good opportunity for girls to update their wardrobe. For the guys, its a good time to pretend to have a girlfriend and money at Pavilion coz it makes them feel cool. Seriously, the world is ending right in front of us as we speakkk!!

so then, where was I?
O yeah! Coffee does not make your teeth shiny! false fact from me people! I'm an Idiot remember? All coffee does is make you look pale and make you shiny in sunlight. Seriously.
I should know :)


So then ladies and gents I'm back to tell you stories just to pointlessly show you how miserable and crazy my life can get sometimes , so you can laugh your butts off and have a good day and sleep well at night. Yeah, seriously, I don't get paid for this. FREE ENTERTAINMENT BABEHH!!.


It was the mid term holiday, boring. agree?

Azhar dint show up to make a predictable/surprise appearance. Syafiq was away dating (delusional as usual x) ) Hafyz wanted to go out with Ezy and Vie, but I dint feel like being mentally and emotionally tortured that day. Nash I presume is trying to lose weight with little or no progress xD. Miera is uhh doing what she does best: ca-pub. Mek is busy looking hot. no surprises.

I was alone. I was bored. no surprises there too!


So I've decided to go to this party that I was invited to. Its in damansara. where? entahla. :B


I thought it was just a normal friends meeting friends party. But God, how wrong I was.


I arrived after a tiring journey with--my momma. HAHA. Yea, that's my 'cool party ride'. x)
She as usual nagged all the way to our destination. Luckily, I survived. I'm alright, but my ears feels funny though. ( I had earplugs on >:] ) . God spared me. but I cant help but feel that there's a reason for that.. a bad one.


Theres no one outside. But I hear voices inside. I thought, Wah! an indoor party! nice! no need to worry about going to the bathroom! and and cool windows too! Nice House!. I tidied myself and went in.

The first thing I saw was food on a fancy table! FREE FOOD BABEHH!!. I also saw what we're having for desert. JELLY!! FREE JELLY BABEHH!! I saw a lot of pretty girls too! FREE GIRLS BABEHH!!

(( random guy: budus, they're not for free laa! >:/ )) .......*fantasies ends*

ahem.

Farah, the party host came. Daughter of my mom's friend. We greeted each other. There were smiles. There were laughs. I told her how pretty she looks. She commented on how unappropriately I dressed. x(

a free tshirt i got from jusco and a pair of shorts. All the guys around me were wearing fancy shirts and ties on, skinnies and and complete with tux jackets.

I really felt low. (Not because I was short mind you!! :/ ). It was embarrassing.

But nah I kept it inside. I've faced worst, really. I said to her: This isn't a normal friends meeting friends party is it?. She said: Uhh.. nope?.

Woh! how surprising! :/


It didnt end there. (Great! more surprises! xD)


She said something that really sounded more like vie slapping my face off-- :

" Umm.. Haziq? " :/

"ye sayaa" :D

"err... why ko x tanggal sliper?? " -_-'

"BOOM!!"












ahem. FREE HUMILIATION BABEHHH!!!

...Floats Your Boat

huah
tell me when the world ends.
I'm bored :P



Cuti?
ohho
tanye diri anda

ADE PLAN?

...Gives You 100 Followers

KECOH!
org lain dh 1000++++
hahahaha :P

weh kalo follow tapi tak bace baik xyah la wei!
aku x perlukan begitu ramai stalker
:)





ruang khas untuk ratu2 dari Neptune

...Burns Your Calories Away.

whooyyeahh. Put aside those problems and take a minute to stop. relax. notice the small things in life. enjoy it. with friends preferably. :)

hoyyeahhh man am I tired. Really TIRED. been busy involving myself with all those things I love. ACTIVITIES!. Unnecessarily busying yourself is fun! who knew!
x).

Yeaaaahaa Woot I might be going to Singapore for a photoshoot project with a friend. I've never met her before. Damn I cant wait. :D I might also go to Sabah for a photography exhibition! lalala cant wait for the mid term school break!

I'm happy. I'm looking forward to life for once. I shall savor every moment of it. AKU-AKAN-ENJOY!.

god bless.



.

...Fixes the Tongue

My life (the most common way to start a blog ladies and gents haha x) ) has finally come to the part where choices must be made. Big important choices that is. The road of life has been clear of traffic jams (tragedies) road bullies (angry moments) and suicidal motorcyclist (complete nonsense that occur in one's life xD) so far. I decided to take the highway: I recently (not that recently actually xP) made a life changing choice: going to smt gombak to study civil engineering and to leave my beloved old school which is increasingly developing thanks to the new generous datin. (thank you Dat-in! you are so 'in'! ergh stupid hiphop joke :B i'm so kewl. ice kewl. ergh stop) .

Life has now taken me to a train station where more life-changing choices must be made. I'm currently facing a big big problem. Like a ticking time bomb, a choice must be made SOON. I recently questioned myself about my capability in my studies. I see no progress. I think I'm loosing interest.

As some of you might know, I'm not very bright. I'm not the kind of person who enjoys education, who even considers it to be my future. I always knew I was not meant to be the smart guy in class, the popular genius at school. And to be honest I'm quite okay with it :). I thank Allah for the lack of intelligence he gave me and filling the gaps with wondrous ideas and superb creativity I came to realize (and boasting to you guys about x) ) today. (uhh.. amin?)

So the choices i was babbling about earlier was:

1) to take the fast going Putra Line : to quit school and achieve my goals in life. To have the time to materialize my ideas. To expand my creativity. to bela rambut panjang! hohhohh >:B mm.. yes.. sexyness. *drool* drool*

2)to take the slow and steady KTM : to keep on studying.. for without knowledge and education, the dark future (and economically challenged future) becomes darker (like azhar xD). Keep schooling to see if I'm wasting my life or not. S-A-C-R-I-F-I-C-E x(

3)to take the easy-going Star Line : PRIVATE SCHOOL!?. Still got education for the future hoyeah. still got time for pretending to be artistic (weehoo yeah). still got sexy long hair woohoo. But no money. Money go poof poof. tooo baad. If only coffee beans worth as much as diamonds.. x(

4)to take the fast fast and fast Kl Monorail : 'Coffee' my problems away. what happens, happens. I keep on schooling. If I fail so what. who cares. I'd die being a janitor. I'd die alone.. coz little girls doesn't like little boys who cant afford to buy them Mat Cool :( . I'd have no time to do the things i wanted to do. I'd be too old. Its basically wasting my life and be okay with it.


My parents are okay with any choice i make. Thank god. But still, train stations are kinda confusing. Which route to take? All I know is my dreams are beyond academic achievements. I also know that no matter how dumb I think I am, If try extra hard than everyone else, I too can get great scores (great not excellent haha).

harghhh! I'll be sleeping under the ticket counter for the time being. My inferior mind cant think that much.

Taxi anyone? :D



.

...Brings You Closer

Yeah we're still together. Just away from each other. But nothing is left damaged here hahaha. We don't need to be 'x berpecah' to keep being happy and close together. Our faces and names are permanently carved on each others hearts. So you people better go run off and think of better 'original' names for yourselves hookay? alright ;) (hok hak hek The 'Idiots'? maybe?)

hurmm. Yeagh actually. we're the 'idiots here'. hahaha none of us are that smart. none of us are the same. Heck, that'll be BORING!! In the case of intelligence, I'm the stupid one xD. He's the average and she's the excellent. Different is great. Different is good. Embrace 'The Difference'. You 'high-standard people' should really think more before saying anything. I believe your 'superior minds' are capable of that, no? ;) Boasting is bad. Boasting is not good. Do not embrace it. x)

hmm but again I could be wrong. (I'm the stupid one remember? x]) you people are different! One is an aged person who thinks she's smart but doesn't acts her age at all! hargh hargh funny. The other one is a self-obsessed narcissist! hmm poor poor guy. Another is a bloated Hippocrate that oozes lies and more lies. But at the end of the day you guys are actually the same. You people share the same icky personality and people are trying hard to pretend to like you. Dont worry, we're still trying our best! yessirr! xD

hahahaha aren't you 'high-standard' people should know better than us 'low-standard' people?
Know that no matter how high you stick your noses up in the air, the world is not yours to do as you please. There's still other people of higher standards. Better yet, there's God. :) So 'kids' i hope you sedar diri next time hahahh. Us 'low' people can teach you stuff too. ya know?

(Of course I dont use names! Are you nuts!? hahahah its called being attacked without knowing it. The greatest form of fun that can be achieved! xD)

god bless.

Tekan tekan :)

.

...weakens your will

I was betrayed, lied to, mentally and emotionally tortured, given all the crap of a traitor and the likes of it, unfairly chose over all because of one girl.
Dude, its unbearable. VERY unbearable.

Stop protecting yourself. Stop protecting yourself with lies you made up as you go on. Stop using crappy excuses and stop all the accusation. Stop feeling preyed on. Its all a lie. You lied to yourself.
Dude, open your eyes. I'm the victim.

You are a pain. You are a sick sick guy. You think you're great. But really, what's so great about a big traitor? I failed. but atleast I tried. You failed without trying. You failed because of the wrong choices you've made.
Dude, yeah this time, I AM mocking you.

I admit. I was rough. I was too harsh. I didn't understand. But now. Whats there to understand? its clear. I'm sorry, pls forgive me. I have feelings too.
Dude, you're tired of me yesterday, you give up today. Me? I'm tired of you a LONG time ago.. and I'm still trying.

Why? why do I still care? I have every reasons in the world to hate and forget. Why didn't I? Why am I still wasting time?
Dude, its because you're important.

Fine. you chose her. Its okay. I'll accept that. It hurts. But I am willing. Why am I the only one who deeply appreciate it? Am I the only one who values it.
Dude, you've sucessfuly become a monster. You killed it.

I remember. The time when everything was fine. Everthing was how it suppose to be. We were happy. We were sad. But we're still brothers. Yeah I remember the good times when it was not damaged like it is now. I remember.
Dude,.... do you?

Okay. It is done. you've made another choice. This is how it turned out. Don't worry buddy, in time you'll forget--If you didn't already. Me? its a permanent scar. I'll learn to live with it.
I'm not angry anymore. But I'm still sad. Goodbye to it.
Dude, congratulations, 1 down.... 2 more to go..

P/S:
Dude, is this really the end?



.

...Another 'something' to say

:Rules:
* Go to your photos folder in your computer.
* Go to the 6th folder of photos.
* Go to the 6th picture in that folder.
* Put the picture on your blog and description of it.
* Invite six friends to join the challenge.Link them in your blog and let them know they have been challenged


Its kinda new. Haha baru msk. :B
Haaaahhh.. my McD night with JUON and friends :)



.

...makes all the sick feelings go away

AWESOME! honest lyrics x)